*I’m sorry if the use of language in the video is a bit inappropriate*
Have a look at the mirror, me and my family look so alike. I mean physically we are so alike, it must be the genes. How about mentally? There must be some genes controlling as well, aren’t there?
Looking at my relatives who love to judge people.
Am I just one of them? Selfish, judgmental, making fun of others.
Thought they know so much more than anyone, thought no one can be better, thought the world owes them….
I get tired of thinking about them, but then, at the end of the day, maybe I am just one of them. Can I get rid of it?
Or in a family with depression, am I just one of them?
Will I get depression oneday? Am I born with it? Is this just coincidience if one day I get it too?
All the socialization and interactions with my relatives, all the genes, everything counts.
The chain of thought started to freak me out…
Can I run away from my family?
Or if I have the desire to be a murderer.
Am I born with it? Can I blame it to my genes? Can I get rid of it? Am I a shame to my family?
”Sometime I wonder what’s inside of me,
my family are hiding inside me,
I never know what I do know.
Running away is something we always done well,
Well and mostly I can’t even tell what I’m running from
Corpsed into ice, I cannot ,I cannot,I cannot, run from my family” ( from the lyrics)
Can I get rid of the dark side?
I cannot find the answer, but a wise young man says something remarkable that keep me thinking —the accepance of our dark sides.
”Like all people, I have a “shadow,” and I have learned that the healthiest thing one can do is to integrate this darkness into one’s self. If you reject it and abhor it, then you only repress it, and it only gets stronger when it is not acknowledged.
As I have experienced life, and learned how to increase my capacity for tolerance and compassion, so too has my capacity for darkness grown as well. This is natural, because balance is the rule of nature. In order to become more compassionate, I must also cultivate the capacity for more selfishness. In order to be more tolerant, I must also cultivate my ability for intolerance and hatred.
This sounds scary, but it is not. Because while we all have the capacity for both good and evil, it is our choice at every moment whether to engage in decent activities or engage in behaviors that will harm others. I have long since come into the habit of choosing compassion over hatred, and peace of mind over anger. ”
Written on December 26th, 2007 on http://www.experienceproject.com
view the whole passage here: http://www.experienceproject.com/stories/Have-A-Dark-Side/116964